Hey Maniacs. Well the fight is over, and I think most of you already know the result. I’m not gonna post any real details about it here, I’ll wait to discuss the fight in-depth after i post the video, which I should have in a few days. 7-10 business days, actually.
Now, a few things that are slightly bugging me. I will be the very first person to say that I am not a great fighter. I am not a ‘badass’, I am not a killer, I am not the next Jon Jones (who btw, had me absolutely in shock on Saturday night. I never woulda guessed Bones would have handled Rua so easily. Wow.). What I am, is a guy who loves the sport of MMA more that most anything else in my life. My gym, my team is my 2nd family. I am not exaggerating. I will brown bag my lunch for 2 weeks to afford a PPV. I will give up going out and partying with friends, eating “fun” things, going out to restaurants with my girlfriend, all for the chance to compete in this sport that i love so much.
I did lose my first fight. And if you have followed my posts close enough, I have said before that I felt I should have beaten him, and that loss had a very drastic effect on me. Someone brought up his record in my last “A.K Fight Blog” post, and they noted I was his only win. I am. And let me tell you why-its because on that night, he was a better fighter than I was. 2 weeks before that fight, I literally could not get out of bed. I couldn’t walk. I couldn’t dress. I injured my back and had lots of inflammation in my S.I joint and a sneeze would bring me to the point of tears for how much pain it caused me. That is not an exaggeration. After dropping hundreds of dollars at the chiropractor to get me in good enough shape to be able to walk, I stepped in a cage and fought. For less money that what I spent at the chiropractor 2 weeks prior. On fight night, a corner man had to call me and tell me they weren’t gonna make it to the fight. On fight night, the guy taping my hands (we have to get our own tape-men, the org does not provide them. This isnt the UFC people!) ran into an issue and ended up being very late. I’m sitting in the back with a commissioner in my ear, telling me every minute “If your tape man isnt here in 6 minutes, youre not fighting. If hes not here in 5 minutes, you’re not fighting”. I started getting my hands taped right when the 2nd fight on the card started. I was fight #3. My walkout music is playing, and they are tuggin my gloves on. I walk to the cage wihout breaking a sweat, no warm-up what so ever. I get taken down, and choked out. I was unable to defend the choke, I was unable to overcome the mental blows I had taken that night. I couldn’t recover, my opponent capitalized, and I lost. He was better than me that night.
My opponent this last weekend (Mr. Downing) was 0-3. Yes, 0-3. But I was 1-1. Similar records. It was a pretty even match. And I’ll be the first to say, he fought very, very tough guys. One of his opponents is now the title holder in our organization, and is trying out for TUF 13. He admitted himself that Mr. Downing almost knocked him out when they fought. Downing throws crazy strikes with good power, and that makes him dangerous. Downing’s last opponent was 5-0 at the time he fought him, at 0-2. Just because I did some write-ups for MMAMania, does not mean I’m a future title holder and should be fighting top-ranked opponents. I called the promoter 3 months ago, told them I would be happy to fight again, and they offered me an opponent. I accepted, then did my research on him. We dont exactly have a plethora of fighters in this state, at my weight. I take the fights that I am offered, and dont complain. I am happy to compete.
I felt a ton of pressure for this fight. I cant describe how much pressure I felt. A loss to this guy, and everyone and their brother would be saying “wow, he lost do a dude that was 0-3”. The haters on Mania would be out in force, after all the blogs I wrote leading up to this fight. I would have to face the maniac music, so to speak, and seeing as I am a man of my word I would have to post a video of my loss, and do a write up on it. My gym would look foolish. The worst part of it is, that 0-3 guy is dangerous. He’s a wild striker, with power, and that is always dangerous. Plus, he is willing to step into the ring and fight. Hes not lacking courage. A win over this guy, and then people would say “well, he fought a guy who was 0-3, big deal”. Well, I was only 1-1. I’m not exactly ‘the next big thing’ either. I dont train with a world-famous camp with a bunch of UFC-contraced guys. I fought a guy on my level, who I viewed as a challenge, which is all I can ask for.
Maybe I’m just rambling on here, and I apoloize if thats what it seems like. I just didnt want a bunch of people discrediting or under-estimating my opponent. Thats when things like UFC 69 happen. As soon as you give somone no chance, they will prove to you that they, in fact, have a chance.
While I’m very glad I did all the blogs leading up to this fight, I wont do it again. It took a ton of time, and it added lots of pressure to an already high-pressure situation. I have no idea how the real pros do this. Jon Jones should be given a damn medal just for dealing with all the media leading up to his Rua fight, much less for the beautiful display he put on. However, I do thank you all for the support and for following me.